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This is a topic that I'd like to reserve for the discussion of weather. What we think about it, how it is in one's area of the world, likes/dislikes, anything to do with weather. To get started, at least this weekend will be great, sunny and highs in the 70s and it'll be almost 80 tomorrow. But then Monday it'll get stormy and though the high will be around 70, by Tuesday it'll cool down to lower than 40 for a high. I've had enough of winter, and it's the middle of April... So, now post away I guess

I was talking with Yuki in her blog about this earlier, and I though that it would be a good topic for here for us to discuss. We can also cite fictional examples, but I'm mostly looking at this from a "human" or "real life" POV. Here's a couple of things that I posted in her blog that I find disconcerting. One is that I have a fear of crowds and strangers, and the other is some of the disadvantages of living where I do. To quote: "Oddly, one of the things that I don't have to put up with where I live is a lot of people being around. And I hope that you didn't take my comment as "the whole human race is worthless because people are prone to acting out of fear". Most of the people I've been around just keep to themselves and at least try to be as least annoying as possible. I've frequently been shopping at Walmart pretty much on my own recently and I've never had any serious issues. I do accept that most people are decent human beings, but it's that one percent of people who like to cause trouble that's the issue. Either I've adjusted to being more independent and wanting to do things on my own, or my anxiety meds are kicking in earlier than I was told to expect. I'm thinking of starting a thread in where ever the best place for it is about fear. But I'll share something here. Usually, there's not much trouble where I live, there's not a ton of people who live out where I do, and almost everyone knows everyone. But one of my neighbor's storage barns has been broken into several times and stuff stolen. One thing that you might find disconcerting is the police response. Not that they're doing a bad job, but that logistics and where we are sort of leaves them with one hand tied behind their back. Local law enforcement (city police) don't really have jurisdiction out where we live. Only the County Sheriff's office and the Ohio Highway Patrol (our main state police) have automatic jurisdiction. I don't know about the Sheriff's office, but the nearest OHP post is about 25 minutes away. So I guess that hopefully you can see what I mean. But there's not much to fear out here. There's no violent crime really to speak of--maybe because in part of firearms ownership in my area being high and criminals knowing that Ohio is a stand your ground state--but it's still a surprise to hear the rescue squad vehicles' sirens going off, because out here, you can hear them from miles away, and it's easy to determine where they're going. Just an eerie thing that happens around here..." So those are a couple of my fears and how I've dealt with them. I sort of dealt with those two by rationalization. What sort of other responses to fears like these or others have we observed?

Oddly, one of the things that I don't have to put up with where I live is a lot of people being around. And I hope that you didn't take my comment as "the whole human race is worthless because people are prone to acting out of fear". Most of the people I've been around just keep to themselves and at least try to be as least annoying as possible. I've frequently been shopping at Walmart pretty much on my own recently and I've never had any serious issues. I do accept that most people are decent human beings, but it's that one percent of people who like to cause trouble that's the issue. Either I've adjusted to being more independent and wanting to do things on my own, or my anxiety meds are kicking in earlier than I was told to expect. I'm thinking of starting a thread in where ever the best place for it is about fear. But I'll share something here. Usually, there's not much trouble where I live, there's not a ton of people who live out where I do, and almost everyone knows everyone. But one of my neighbor's storage barns has been broken into several times and stuff stolen. One thing that you might find disconcerting is the police response. Not that they're doing a bad job, but that logistics and where we are sort of leaves them with one hand tied behind their back. Local law enforcement (city police) don't really have jurisdiction out where we live. Only the County Sheriff's office and the Ohio Highway Patrol (our main state police) have automatic jurisdiction. I don't know about the Sheriff's office, but the nearest OHP post is about 25 minutes away. So I guess that hopefully you can see what I mean. But there's not much to fear out here. There's no violent crime really to speak of--maybe because in part of firearms ownership in my area being high and criminals knowing that Ohio is a stand your ground state--but it's still a surprise to hear the rescue squad vehicles' sirens going off, because out here, you can hear them from miles away, and it's easy to determine where they're going. Just an eerie thing that happens around here...

Hi everyone. I got done everything that I really wanted to get done last night aside from writing fan fic. Hopefully I'll have some time to work on that later tonight. I have a sportscar race that I want to watch in the next few hours, then after that, I'll be trying to follow the NASCAR race online while working on finishing up a few things. Then maybe it'll be fan fic time. I'll be back later

I don't know if I'd want justice out of love, but I'd hope that they'd learn their lesson. That stuff is one of the reasons why I'm sort of afraid of people. People are prone to panicking, being reactionary, and I don't like crowds. I get claustrophobic, and I fear the "mob mentality" when people panic. Even individually, I'm fearful of people. A person has the potential to be good, or evil and cruel. I'm thankful that I've known a lot of nice people in my life, but I've also seen cruelty and vile things being done to people by their fellow man. Of course, that maybe explains why I like to hang around women so much. I identify more with women, I'm more sensitive, and though I'm into stereotypical guy things (auto racing/automobiles, world history, some video gaming), I'd rather hang out with my girlfriend, go shopping with her, help her with makeup and clothing, stuff like that. Of course, I don't have a girlfriend, so I'm kinda screwed on that. Nonetheless, I get more joy out of hanging with women than with men most of the time. I guess my point is that I feel that there's a place for everyone, and everyone has issues, some different than others, but on one hand, we're all unique, but on the other, we're not that unique. I guess that people tend to focus on the things that separate us as things that separate us, instead of making us unique, and remembering that we're all human and thus more the same than we sometimes think we are.

Hi again everyone. I'm almost done with everything I needed to get caught up with today. All I need to do is get some rest and get up and do a few more things later tonight. But other than that, things have gone well today. I'll be back later

I'm currently (well, trying to, actually) play Postal 2 again. It's the steam version of Postal 2: A Week in Paradise called Postal 2: Complete. I'm trying to beat it on various difficulties. The most amusing aspect of the game is how many menial, mundane tasks can become life and death battles. It's almost like the town of Paradise, in addition to being anything but what the name implies, is in fact a slice of hell on earth. The town is full of assholes who want to kill you, and as you up the difficulty, the more people who want to take you out, to where the whole town is gunning for you. But all and all, the game's a parody of real life, absurdly over-embellished, and it's a test of how evil and amoral you want to be. You can be a pacifist, or you can pay evil on to evil to your heart's content. And besides, it does prove that violence and such belong in video games, and not in real life.

It sounds like they were bullshitting you to pressure you to leave. If it does have something to do with your gender issues, then that's probable grounds to argue discrimination. Personally, I'm glad that you were able to leave, considering that you got into a physical fight with the dude. I'd consider that a serious sign that he didn't appreciate having you there. And, IMO, that's his problem, not yours. As I've said, some people can be so intolerant of others, it's kinda sickening to think about it in this day and age. In some ways, as we advance as a species, it seems that we take 2 steps forward and 1 step back. But technology is a double edged sword, as is social media especially. It's a great avenue for information and staying connected to friends and family. But it's also easier for assholes to spread their bullshit and condescending views on things. It's really kinda friggin' sick in a way. But at least you're out of that situation now and I hope that things start to get better for you. And at least it'll likely be warmer in Wales than here in a few days. 70's and sunny here this weekend, then in the 30s and 40s for a couple of days shortly afterward... This weather has more mood swings than I can have, and it does literally make me sick sometimes.

I guess that my problem with 50 Shades is that Christian tried to minimize his romantic connections to Ana, and he just wanted sex. Bella and Edward was all about romance and putting off sex until they were really ready. I guess that I'm kinda idealistic when it comes to my tastes in fiction. Hell, Mizuki and Sho demonstrate that in Guyver, and both are kinda idealistic. Natsuki strikes me as being idealistic, and even Shizu seems to have some idealistic thinking going on in her head at times. I do read the fiction that I do as kinda an escape, but I don't think that 50 Shades would do that for me.

Hi everyone. I slept though last night, and I awoke with a huge sinus headache that kept me bed ridden for an additional couple of hours. Nevertheless, I got up, did most of the dishes, and I only have to have the silverware to soak before I rinse and dry it. Sleeping in meant that I didn't get much done last night, but at least the main stuff I want to look up today won't take very long. I just have to remember to finish up/re-start up on some stuff tonight. At least once this crappy weather (which is what is making not feel so good) passes, we'll have a pretty good weekend here! But then it'll really get rainy and cool afterwards. But at least this weekend will afford me the chance to do a few things and such that I've been trying to do. I'll be back later

That's what I'm working on right now. I switched jobs last year. Problem is that I took leave from work until I was able to start my new job. Problem is, I haven't started my new job. It's been 5 months since I took leave, and I'm still waiting to start. So that's my issue. And I do feel better with my medication. One issue, though, is that it makes it real easy for me to fall asleep. I started taking it at night because of some sleep issues, namely feeling tired and once I lay down, it doesn't take me long to fall asleep. I've also been sleeping with a pillow between my knees, since I like to sleep on my side. However, when I am awake, I do fee much more energetic than I've been accustomed to. The weather also seems to be helping, at least that it's sunny and warm. (Sarcasm alert) I can't wait for next Tuesday and Wednesday, when it'll get cold and rainy again! What really sucks is that it's supposed to be 70 on Saturday and Sunday before that! However, the weather in the UK probably isn't like that. I know from reports for the Silverstone WEC race weekend that it'll be cold there again this year more than likely. And I sort of doubt that the weather changed much since you last wrote. As for the cat stuff, well, we have plenty of them here! They're mostly outdoor cats, so they're all rarely inside at once. And we do have one that's like 12 years old now, all the way down to one that's a 3 month old kitten. Hopefully you can get farther with your legal case against your landlord. If it turns out to be gender discrimination, you probably could argue a case against him. This goes back to one of my biggest gripes about the human race in general, that we're scared of the unfamiliar and intolerant of others when we're 99% the same. When we close ourselves off from the world, that just cultivates ignorance and a lack of understanding.

Hi everyone. I got caught up on most of the stuff I wanted to work on yesterday. That means that I only have a little bit to get done today/tonight. That shouldn't take long. If I'm lucky, I can get some PC gaming and fan fic in tonight. Outside of that, I don't really have any big plans. And it seems that my anxiety meds are working. I do in general feel more energetic and less anxious. Of course, the weather changes could also be helping out a bit. I'll be back later

I've gotten an idea for one of my fan fic characters and his battle form. My character Camel is a vampire hybrid that's capable or transforming his body into any battle form that he pleases. But one feature I want him to have is bio-luminescent highlights around his eyes. My inspiration doesn't come so much from nature, as from a technically inanimate object. Both major generations of the Audi R18 e-tron quattro Le Mans race car has used back lit strips in their headlight bins that are different colors so the teams can identify which of their cars is in pit road at night. I also got influence from how occasionally a Guyver's eye lenses will light up red as a warning when it's user first transforms into his armor or when the armor's in SDM mode. For how the Audi light deal works/looks, here's a couple of photos: http://fourtitude.com/galleries/?c=show_image;p=Motorsport%2FSportscar%2FWorld%20Endurance%20Challenge%2F2013%2FRound%2001%20-%206%20Hours%20of%20Silverstone%2FPre-Race%20and%20Qualifying;i=24;img=2013-wec-silverstone-pre-race-audi-sport-124.jpg http://fourtitude.com/galleries/?c=show_image;p=Motorsport%2FSportscar%2FWorld%20Endurance%20Challenge%2F2014%2F00%20-%20Pre-Season%20Test%2C%20Le%20Castellet;i=18;img=2014-WEC-The-Prologue-Preseason-Test-Audi-299.jpg http://fourtitude.com/galleries/?c=show_image;p=Motorsport%2FSportscar%2FWorld%20Endurance%20Challenge%2F2014%2F00%20-%20Pre-Season%20Test%2C%20Le%20Castellet;i=24;img=2014-WEC-The-Prologue-Preseason-Test-Audi-308.jpg I wanted to apply this idea to Camel and maybe 1-2 other things in my story, such as maybe Shizu with her modified Zoaform. But what mechanism would be the best to explain it, since Camel can use/manipulate electrical energy and impulses. Shizu in my story can. She's resistant, but she can't use such things like Camel can. However, Lia (Camel's wife) can use electrical energy and impulses, and manipulate electrical and electromagnetic energy and generate such fields. So what would be the best mechanism to allow for such bio-luminescence?

Sort of the same thing has been ongoing at my house. We've been trying to do updates and such to it, such as new plumbing, new ceilings in some areas, and stuff like that. I also don't know if it helps, but I've been struggling with anxiety issues really bad for over a year now. I only just started taking medication for it last Thursday. This anxiety stuff actually made it hard for me to work as a receptionist. I'm not a very social person to begin with and being anxious about my job and doing what sometimes felt like 20 things at once didn't help. I only saw an intake person at a mental health place back in January, and I wasn't able to get in until last Thursday (I had to cancel my March appointment due to a family commitment). Another thing that screwed me up was my grandma going to the hospital and some money issues. Grandma's fine now, and she's actually better than she's been in a while, too. The weather is also starting to improve which also helps my mood. At least I'm not as stir crazy and can go outside. We also have a car that's under repair right now to replace our old Jeep SUV. My father wants to use it so he has something decent to drive while he's repairing his truck. I'll be glad to get our Pontiac back, because it's more comfortable, gets better gas mileage and is much more pleasant that the mini-school bus that is the Jeep. Hopefully you're doing better now, and hopefully the really horrid stuff that you had to deal with is out of the way for good. Kinda disturbing reading about it, to be honest, especially the landlord deal. There's for sure laws against that stuff in my country, and judges can sentence them to live in one of their apartments until they shape up. It's either that or jail time. But I do hope that things are going well for you now.

Well, Riv, that's sort of my life. I live sort of in the middle of nowhere. Of course, I also live very close to a state highway and a railroad line. Best thing about it is that I don't really like living in a downtown area. Bad news is that it's like a monumental jump from civilization to middle of nowhere in only a mile or so as far as where I live. Of course, that also means that l sort of need an internet connection to have much of a connection to the outside world, considering that I'm not yet back to work yet.

First video of one of my favorite musicians of all time: And one of my favorite music videos of all time:

Hi everyone. I just got done making breakfast for grandma. Of course, last night, I didn't get to work on much, because once again, I took my meds, and I went to sleep until about 8:00 this morning. At least I'm sleeping better and I feel more energetic now. So I once again have some stuff that I have to catch up on today. And hopefully I can get it done. Also, for those of you who have DirecTV, the Weather Channel came back on this morning. So we now have WeatherNation and the Weather Channel. I wonder if DirecTV will pick up AccuWeather when their channel launches later this year. So my plans are basically the same as yesterday, hopefully sleep won't side track me too badly this time I'll be back later

I haven't read 50 Shades of Grey, but I've heard from Twilight fans who read it that it's essentially a revised version of E.L. James' Twilight fan fic work "Master of the Universe", and that she just changed up some elements of the story and Bella and Edward became Ana and Christian. I guess if you don't like Twilight, you won't like 50 Shades, and even if you like Twilight, you won't like 50 Shades, either. I'm not really into the BDSM stuff personally, and Twilight for me was a much better read.

Hi everyone. I didn't get much done last night. I played on the PS2 a bit, took my anxiety medication, and passed out until about 6:00 this morning. So that means that I have some catching up to do. I'll try and get some of it done this morning. Then I'll take a break and do something else, then try and get back on later. At least I slept well! Another thing that's helped me recently is that the last couple of days I've been sleeping with a pillow between my knees, because I like to sleep on my side usually. That's been a big help as far as comfort goes. But I do plan on getting done today what I didn't get done last night. I'll be back later

Hi everyone. I took my medication last night before I went to sleep and things seemed to have worked better for me this time around. However, I stayed up longer than I intended because my brother had to bring laundry home. I also probably should take some antacid. The McDonald's sausage biscuits I had this morning were good, but they can give me heart burn. I haven't done too much today, but after doing some stuff on here, I'll be taking a break for a while, then when I get back on later, I hope to work on a PC game, fan fic and looking up some stuff in about that order. I'll be back later

Celexia or whatever it's called. I just started Friday. It's not actually very strong stuff. I just was in a rush after getting up later than usual and being in a rush to get stuff done (wash dishes, help feed grandma, clean up the kitchen) before my parent's visit and I forgot I was reading this topic and though I had switched to my blog topic.

Hi everyone. I took my anxiety medication yesterday, and soon after I took it, I went to sleep. Hence, I'm going to start taking it at night before I go to sleep. So I got up just before 7:00 this morning, washed the dishes, started a fire, and made grandma her breakfast. Now I'm waiting for my parents to come out and drop off some stuff. I haven't felt well the past couple of days. Some of it might be me adjusting to my new medication, but I also didn't eat much of anything yesterday, but at least I have something in me now, so at least I don't feel as nauseated as earlier. I do plan on working on fan fic later on after I look up a few things later on. I'm planning on taking a break from here after my parents leave to work on something else and maybe take a nap. I'll be back later

Yeah, I though this was my blog area and I was in a rush to post. I don't know if it can be moved from here to there, but a mod or something can delete it. But as far as my reading, I haven't done too much reading or writing lately. I also haven't been to the library in a while, either. I'm just going though some books at home about history and such. I hope that sort of makes up for my mistaken post.

Hi everyone. I took my anxiety medication yesterday, and soon after I took it, I went to sleep. Hence, I'm going to start taking it at night before I go to sleep. So I got up just before 7:00 this morning, washed the dishes, started a fire, and made grandma her breakfast. Now I'm waiting for my parents to come out and drop off some stuff. I haven't felt well the past couple of days. Some of it might be me adjusting to my new medication, but I also didn't eat much of anything yesterday, but at least I have something in me now, so at least I don't feel as nauseated as earlier. I do plan on working on fan fic later on after I look up a few things later on. I'm planning on taking a break from here after my parents leave to work on something else and maybe take a nap. I'll be back later

Hi everyone. Had a pretty successful day yesterday but by 8:00 last night I was exhausted. I was advised to expect drowsiness with my new anxiety mediation, so I might in a day or two switch to taking it at night. I hope to be able to work on fan fic and maybe do something on a PC game later that I haven't worked on all week. I also don't think that there's much on TV tonight, so I'll be up to that stuff more than likely. I'll be back later