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I'm especially fond of making fresh tuna sauce for sandwich filling. homemade tuna sandwiches are a thousand times better than store bought. easy too. to be honest, the store bought ones taste like utter crap. I'll give you my recipe. try it. you'll love it. small tin of tuna, hand full of sweetcorn, teaspoon of curry powder ( I prefer tandoori mix), 2 tablespoon of sweet soy sauce, a third of a tub of cream cheese. the measurements are approximate of course. by the way durendal, I have always heard that it is dangerous to use rice leftovers. it has a dangerous bacteria that cannot be destroyed by heat. obviously you aren't dead so what do you know that I don't?

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glad you're feeling better. what are your plans for the future? I find that having a plan to follow helps me to feel a lot better in day to day living. the past couple of days have been hard for me too, starting to feel very lonely and that is making me depressed. so I focused on my plans, first to get a motor scooter, then to keep working on making my video game and I also decided to combat loneliness by signing up for a dating site. Do you have any of these type of plans? I think if you don't then perhaps you can think about it and it'll make you feel a lot better.

thank you Cannibal, great stuff!

oh sorry, I have a poor memory. please remind me tomorrow. It's sunday so I got plenty of time to set it up.

some good points I think. It's good to see some new perspectives. sometimes it is not a fear of death that is the issue. it is the fear of being in a place where death is welcome. when I fell into despair, it was because I thought about ending my life. that is what scared me the most because I value my life. I have a survival instinct and the thought that I could be the enemy to my own life threw me into turmoil. The main issue here was that I did not see any value in life. it seemed empty and fraught with danger. there was no hope, no ambition, the things i had held to be important were lost. I have a big empty void in front of me. it was similar to depression, but depression is more about when the things you have in your life don't seem important. in my case, I had nothing in my life any more. well to be clear, it was a matter of perspective. a negative situation i had encountered led me to believe that all the things i wanted out of life were impossible. perhaps it was a form of ptsd? anyhow, I learnt a lot about that kind of fear from that day forwards. I had to basically learn to live with hte idea that i could endanger my own life. these days, if I ever think about self harm, it doesn't bother me too much. I know how to get through it. I know that I am in control of my own actions and I know the steps to take to gain new perspective on my situation,. reading is very helpful. an excellent book for this kind of thing is 'feel the fear and do it anyway'. I thoroughly recommend it for EVERYONE. even if you don't think you currently have a problem,

I guess before we go any further we need to iron out units. when you say 70, you obviously mean Fahrenheit. we don't really understand that in the uk as we work in Celsius. perhaps we should have a quick reference table to understand each other?

I'm glad you started that thread. it's a rally good thing to talk about. that incident of crime sounds bad. can you get security cameras?

recently I've been switching to more vegetarian food. It is mainly because i don't like teh way hte animals are treated in a lot of places. I'm not literally agains the idea of eating dead animals. I would be perfectly happy to eat Game if it weren't so expensive. And i am perfectly happy with fish. I would just prefer not to eat meat from animals that are intensively reared. so anyway , I got some really nice meat free burgrs. they are from tesco and the flavour and texture is really nice. I also like to make rice a lot. I found that it is really easy to make in hte microwave in a plastic container. same amount of water as doing it in a pan, just cook for 25 minutes full power. lid on hte container is best. I got lots more to say but it's late.

chernaudi, I used to be afraid of many things. In order to get past that fear, I just had to do the things I was afraid of. I had to accept things as they are. I was really scared that I might one day go to the top of a tall building and throw myself off. so do you know what I did? I went to the top of the tallest place I could find. I stood at the top. I did not throw myself off. I realised that I was powerful. You see danger in being around other people that you cannot control. but there is something you can control. How you react to things that happen to you. You have seen bad things happen to other people, but the ill feeling you have about that is inferred by your imagination. you don't actually know what that would be like. I have been attacked. it wasn't such an awful experience. I don't know what kind of noises my vocal cords made, it might have seemed distressing to others, but to me, it was just a thing that happened.

yeah some people can be really intolerant. I think it's important to try and understand that. sometimes people are intolerant due to fear and that is due to some unpleasant event in their own life. two universal forces, love and fear. so many people live mostly in fear and it drives them to do and say terrible things. to be honest, the reason I want justice is out of love. I want those people to develop and learn responsibility for their actions. If I do nothing, then I feel they will do this kind of thing again and it will only do them more harm in the long haul. by taking them through the system hopefully, they will learn to change their approach to one that is more harmonious. Did I just say that?

To be honest, I was under so much stress, I may have missed out on a lot of stuff. There were lies involved such as telling me that the other tenant left because of me. (she left because she got a job in another city) Such dishonesty suggests that they weren't being up front about their reasoning. They also claimed they wanted to sell the house but as far as I know they didn't actually sell it. yeah weather is cold at the moment. well it is sunny today but the air is still frigid.

Thanks Sevastian, that's really sweet Chernaudi, thanks for sharing, I hope your Anxiety starts to ease up soon. perhaps a change of job might help you if it is possible? yeah that landlord stuff was pretty awful. yes, sickening actually. need to do more research to see what legal path I can take. it seems like it's been too long and our legal system puts a time limit on things for some absolutely ridiculous reason. it's almost as if they don't consider that victims of crime might need time to get themselves together before going through the legal system. but somebody sent something to me that suggested that I can bypass teh time limit if I go down the path of discrimination. They suggested that the attack and harassment could have been borne out of prejudice towards my gender health issues.

things are getting there... I've spent a week and a half in a flat without any carpets, just concrete floors and bare walls! i put a duvet on the floor to keep my feet from getting frozen. well things start tricky and improve from there. I've had to buy weekly bus passes to be able to get back into town and do shopping etc. There was a hole in the wall that i could fit both feet through. I managed to do an ok job with masonry filler to stop the cold air mostly. not ideal but it's better than nothing. so today I managed to get some flooring. I started in the hall and the parts i've kinda done look really nice! I've got some good underlay and nice laminate flooring. I have to get a small saw to get teh right size for the laminate pieces so I can't do a proper job yet. I have some wallpaper and paint etc. I will start decorating once I've done teh flooring. Tomorrow, I am taking delivery of a cooker and fridge. at last I'll be able to cook and eat properly! I'll also be taking delivery of curtains, table, computer desk, etc. Also today, I adopted the family pet! We got her in 2002 when she was just a kitten. She's been living with my parents for teh past year and now she's living with me. It'll be pretty awesome to have her around, I don't have to worry about being totally alone and lonely. Also tomorrow I am going to apply for a loan so I can get a motor scooter. This should make my travel a lot more efficient and manageable. The bus is getting expensive and I'm wasting far too much time waiting around for it. British buses are a joke to be honest. If you're lucky there will be a schedule at the bus stop. if you're REALLY lucky, the bus drivers will actually follow the schedule. It's expensive too. it's costing the equivalent of around £50 a month. in about a fortnight it'll go up to around £60 a month! well if I get accepted for the loan, I will be repaying about £50 a month and I can get 70 miles per gallon. a gallon costs £6 so that's next to nothing really. most importantly, I can stop wasting so much time and be far more productive.

hey guys, I've checked on member permissions and I think it should all be fine now.

ah ok! I see what's going on. thanks Cannibal. When I set up the additional member groups for member plus and member double plus, it didn't reflect in the wiki. it seems I'm going to need to do some investigation into the software bridge and why it isn't working 100%.

could you be more specific? does it appear that you are logged in? is there an edit link? does it give you a message?

do you still have a problem? is there any error message?

Isn't that the whole point though? Shou have shown an ability to do amazing things with his strong willpower. Things such as creating the gigantic. creating XD.

firstly, I want to point out the potential for shou's response to be misunderstood. depending on what the original japanese word was, (I haven't checked) Shou may simply be saying "okay" and then concurrently supplying the energy that aptom needs. secondly I want to point out that the guyver has power amps and energy amps. we know that the guyver can use these things to increase the mass of it's punches and kicks. this suggests these organs work by using fields. it's not infeasible that should could extend the field beyond the guyvers physical body and amplify aptoms energy. if the energy amps are amplifying energy by transferring energy from th boost dimension and using that to enhance an existing reservoir of potential energy or energy currently being transferred, then in that sense, aptom would be using guyvers energy.

I think when Salkafar compared it to Hong Kong, he fully took into account the various issues you've cited, since Hong Kong would have to allow for all that.

new episode?? great! i won't click the spoiler buttons yet... can't wait to come back and see what's happened

aptoms demonstrated ability is workable on zoaforms. I cannot think of any circumstance where aptom has obtained the DNA of a creature other than a zoaform. although he has shown the ability to use fusion on guyver cells so he could potentially absorb the bio matter and utilise it. it comes down to the ability of the two lifeforms ability to seize and manipulate DNA information. we have no evidence that aptom could seize and control the DNA of a bio boost parasite, BUT we happen to know that the parasite can bind and assimilate almost any biological organism. whilst aptoms cells may be attempting to manipulate the BBP cells, the BBP cells will be easily assimilating Aptoms cells. essentially it's an arms race where the BBP is a vastly superior arsenal.

may I suggest...if we think about how the megasmsher works or how we think it works, it accelerates particles by use of those funny round organelles inside the lenses. now, while the megasmasher is a particle cannon and accelerates particles by using the lenses, could it not use the mechanism to accelerate the ice blast through use of whatever energy and forces it uses? in that scenario, we may be able to call it a combo whilst not being a full fusion?

Apologies. and apologies to anyone I was overly harsh to. I am irritable right now and emotional. probably hormonal. sorry TMI.