So I went on another date, and that pretty much bombed too. well he was a nice guy too, but I just was not attracted to him. anyway something weird happened about a week ago. out of the blue, I suddenly started finding random guys attractive. not sure how it happened. so I guess I was missing something important. something that has appeared now. Anyway, I met a guy online a few days ago and I talked to him for a long while. I think I really like him. He has really nice deep blue eyes. he is stocky and he is no nonsense. he made me laugh a lot too and also laughed at a lot of my jokes. So I'm really looking forward to meeting him in person.
I don't know how things are going to go of course. It's been really tiring using online dating. I think if it doesn't work out with this guy, I'm going to go and try and pick up girls in person. I think I look alright now so I feel confident enough to do that. I found out about a gay night in a local pub so I should be able to find some nice girls there.
the end of this month, I'm looking at moving house. I have some people who want to swap with me. well last time i spoke to them they said they wanted to. so it won't be long now. then I'll be close to the doctors, close to my friends and family, close to town and the supermarkets. just so much better for everything.
I'll be able to start coming off my anxiety medicine too. that should help clear my head and help me focus on everyday tasks.