Dreams

[ErutanXiku]

Of course you're not interrupting That's why I suggested I post the results of future attempts in my blog-thread...I don't want anyone to feel that I've suddenly taken over, which I honestly do not mean to do

Thank you for your take on my dream; I suppose that is a problem - dreams are open to multiple interpretations, but I don't know how to interpret my own unless it's outright obvious

As for the scream, it isn't in relief either. It's like he opens his mouth, contorts his face in what looks like pain, but the sound he makes isn't a scream in pain/agony. Rather, it's a sound that starts low and raises in pitch...

I've attempted the exercise a few times since then, but have had no other results. I try to enter the study, but it seems like my mind won't let me go there. Each time I try to focus on what I should be doing, everything seems to go white and the usual random splash-page of images fill me, so I suppose I'm just finding it hard to concentrate. Though, last night, I'm sure I heard someone say "Hey," as a greeting...could be auditory hallucination due to my concentration...

Mirabilis, I haven't had adventure dreams in a while...at least, I don't remember having any for some time I remember, as a kid, my favourite dream was a Ghostbusters/Little Mermaid crossover

[*Jess♥]

I've attempted the exercise a few times since then, but have had no other results. I try to enter the study, but it seems like my mind won't let me go there. Each time I try to focus on what I should be doing, everything seems to go white and the usual random splash-page of images fill me, so I suppose I'm just finding it hard to concentrate.

I'm not surprised to be honest.

it seems to me, that dream is not ready to reveal it's secrets yet

[ErutanXiku]

Haha, yeah seems like it - after all it's eluded me for 17+ years, and sometimes I almost forget it if it wasn't for that sound the girl makes XD

Anyway, in an attempt to 'converse', shall we say, with my subconscious - as I believe it has the key - I had a weird experience. Images were flashing and shifting, such as what began as a badly drawn image of a boy waking up, morphing into a beautifully rendered CG image.

Suddenly, there was a voice that said "That's really good," and I asked it if it was referring to the CG image and when it didn't reply, I took it to be "Yes," and proceeded to explain the process behind making one. The voice then began to speak, but I couldn't understand as the words were muffled, and I could barely make out a part of what it said which was "The Banana did it," I was confused by this and thought 'Banana...?' it didn't make sense and as it continued to speak in muffled words, I fell asleep.

Now that I'm awake...I wonder if it was hinting at BananaKing being a great CG-Artist one day, if that's his ambition? XD

[*Steel]

I'll garentee there was very little hidden meaning behind this but last night I had a wacky dream that the earth was under alien attack and the some of the survivors piloted super robots to try and alow the others time to evacuate on a big space ship. The problem was that the robots seemed to be fussy and would only alow themselves to be piloted by very spesific individuals. I kept trying but the robots would short circuit when I turned them on. They all had a sort of green compatability bar that would fill up. They were pretty much a rip off of all the robots I've seen over the years. There were some Gundam, transformers, Mazinger and so on... but all the sort of same twenty foot whatever scale.

Anyway one of my friends sacrificed himself to buy us time to get to the last of the survivors onto the ship but we'd nearly all out robots by then. The alien ships were still comming and we needed time too alow the ship to take off. I ran off too the feild where the remaining uncompatable robots were and spotted a silver Gurren Lagann. I'd tried it three times before but it didn't work, but it was the only one that didn't short circuit when I tried it. The bar just filled slightly before turning off. I ran over and jumped it in. This time the bar almost reached the top so I shouted at it and it filled all the way up and came too life. I looked up at the alien ships comming towards us and shot off to head them off... then woke up.

The main weird part is that although people were dying all over the place it felt light hearted. I didn't actualy feel anywhere near as stressed or sad as I would do normaly and heading off to fight the aliens didn't feel like I was going off to die. Everything was sort of bright, sunny and optimistic.

Odd that I havn't seen Gurren Lagann in years...

[ErutanXiku]

Ah! I almost forgot!

I did the exercise again last night, after a few nights of trying with no success...Rather than it being a door in a wall, it was a door in the ground, like a cellar. We went in and the girl chose the Crystal Ball followed by Bread - I thought she was going to choose the Apple, because it kept flashing between Apple and Bread until it settled on Bread. When I looked at the picture, I saw an Ocean Liner in a storm - it was painted in gray like the world of my dream. I didn't choose a book.

[*Jess♥]

ah that's good.

the veil is lifting.

this pretty much suggests the same as what I PM'd you about.

although, it does suggest that it might not be easy.

[ErutanXiku]

Hmm, I don't think it will be, easy I mean...I think the veil will be lifted steadily, while in the meantime my subconscious likes to make of fun of me - at least that's how it feels. What about it suggests the veil is lifting, if you don't mind me asking...unless it's something you can't disclose?

In other news, I had a pretty non-sensical dream last night. By that I mean, I don't think it has any real significance apart from the obvious, and the fact that it features a celebrity is even more so.

I was on the phone, trying to leave a message for my father regarding my condition, but his brother answered and wasn't really listening to what I had to say and then the phone went dead. I redialled the number and this time Matt Damon answered, only he tried to listen but the line was so bad it eventually got cut off. I was stunned by this, as I couldn't believe Matt Damon was at their house, I mean why?! Then my mum came into the room and asked me how things were going and I told her that I kept trying to tell them, but the phone keeps cutting out. I then dialled their number again and this time my cousin answered; she was quite nice but told me that they were all planning on going out so didn't have time to stick around and chat - this made me angry, as I felt that the only reason they decided to go out was because I had been calling, trying to tell them something important and true to their personality, they were acting like they didn't have time for my problems since we left my father. I could hear Matt Damon and her father in the background, talking but trying to get everyone to go out. In my anger, I just yelled at her about my condition, but immediately felt bad about how I said it and was thrown and irritated further by the fact that it apparently didn't register to her what I had said. She then said that before she went, she had a few questions like why my signature was so similar to my mothers (which it isn't exactly) and I said it was because my mother's was the only signature I could learn from. She asked two more questions, but I can't remember what they were and I hung up on her in annoyance, but I was still feeling bad, because while she had seemed pleasant enough, I was still angry and felt I could have handled the situation better.

The scene then changed to a boat trip on the river. I was walking in a village towards the dock - for some reason the layout was a little weird, and getting from Point A to Point B was based on timing. When I reached the dock, the boat had just left and so I had to wait for the next one which was due in 20 minutes. While I waited, an elderly man approached me and we started talking and then the guy who owned the boat came along, apologising for making us wait - he was a guy that I've worked with a few times in my current job and he owns his own Boating Company that provides cruises along the Thames. I can't remember anything about what the three of us talked about while we waited, but eventually a boat did come and we boarded, but we still kept talking and a second boat came that obviously threw the timing of departures off track - much to the Boat Owner's annoyance - and I woke up.

The first one is quite straightforward - in that it could be about how I feel about telling my father's family about my condition...though I can't figure out why Matt Damon would be in it. The second one is a little weird and seems to suggest a journey or something...not sure, but I'm open to alternative interpretations.

Edited February 25, 2011 by ErutanXiku

[ErutanXiku]

I was reminded of this while writing my latest post. It's a dream I had last night and it was about my father.

I was on a semi-crowded train, heading home from somewhere and I was listening to my music, when I looked up and saw my father standing opposite me by the doors. He was calling my name, as I could lip-read, and so I took out my earphones to hear him. He then tried to plead with me, asking me why I hadn't been in contact with him and I just laid it all out, telling him why we left and that we didn't want anything to do with him. The people on the train stopped what they were doing and just watched as our drama unfolded, and when his stop came, he begged me to get off at his stop so that we could talk, but I wasn't moving. The other people on the train tried to help me, sticking up for me and telling him to go - some even gave him money, telling him to take it and leave. He didn't take it and he eventually gave up and stepped off. Just as the doors were closing, I realised that I did have something to talk to him about - my condition - and jumped off, apologising to the other passengers.

I ran and caught up with him at the next platform, where he waited for the next train that would take him home, and we talked. I apologised for what happened at his step-father's funeral last year, which was the first time I'd seen him since we left, despite it not being my fault...it was his brother's. Then I proceeded to ask him if there were any health issues in the family, which he said that there weren't, and then I told him about my condition. He didn't show any reaction to it, just a simple "Oh," and then mentioned that his train was coming. I saw that it was and said that I had to go, but he said that I wasn't going anywhere and that I was coming over to his for dinner - he wasn't saying it light-heartedly, but forcefully. Not knowing what else to do, I just ran and he chased after me; I headed back into the main part of the station and looked for the nearest Security Guard. When I got to him, I looked back and my father wasn't there, then I asked the Guard for help asking him to send out a notice to keep my father away from me, while I continued my own journey home.

I'm not sure what else was going to happen, but that's when I woke up because my mum was knocking on my door :/

However, if that doesn't scream "Daddy Issues", I don't know what does

[*Steel]

Well last nights dream wasn't exactly the deep meaningful type. Once again it was apocolypse o'clock, this time though... It was Dinosaur armagedon!

Most of it took place in a huge museum and I was trying to control the survivors and baracade the place before the Jarassic Park style raptors could get us. There was alot of running around and people getting eaten, but some how it was pretty awesome.

I'm also well aware of the irony of the last humans holding up in a museum whilst dinosaurs surounded us.

[ErutanXiku]

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Edited February 1, 2021 by ErutanXiku
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