Riv's random self

[river_chaos]

Went to see the Avengers today! And this movie nut case gives it a 5/5 rating!

[river_chaos]

Yay!! I'm done with finals! Now, to wait for the results to come out next week

[*Jess♥]

I hope you have a good result!

I want to go and see avengers, as soon as money allows. so it's not a 5/5? well i heard it's not amazing, but is still damn good?

[river_chaos]

I got the grades early this morning with B's to -C's...T-T

o.O I gave Avengers a 5 out of 5, where did you get the 'not 5/5' part? It's most certainly worth seeing!

[*Jess♥]

aha I see!

slightly different use of the term nutcase it seems! around here, when somebody says somebody is a nutcase, it means they are mentally incompetent.

that's why i thought you were talking about somebody else giving it 5/5 and disapproving.

so you gave it a 5/5? awesome!

you got B's and C's? cool, that's the kind of grades I got.

not sure on your system, but B and C is a success, right?

[river_chaos]

A's, B's, and C's are the passing grades; D's and F's are the failing grades.

Sorry about the use of the term nutcase. I use it as a synonyme to crazy most of the time.

[*Jess♥]

no, it's ok, it's not offensive, I just wouldn't normally hear anyone call them self a nutcase

in this case, I would expect 'nut' but that is the delights of different localities !

[river_chaos]

I read that while I was still half asleep... Yeah, I need to stop reading stuff before I'm fully awake and my brain's out of the gutter.

[river_chaos]

I don't think I've ever been so close to severing ties to my grandmother before now. She requested me to make her another shawl, exact same color and all, and she told me she was using the shawl I made her for Christmas years back as a rag on the back of a recliner to soak up my disowned-uncle's sweat when he sits down I go ahead and make it (deliberately took several months to make it) and when I gave to her today she didn't say thanks

I have a moral that dictats that family always comes first in any situation or request. And the way I was raised it does not sit right to not do a favor for meemaw. With what's been going on the past few years since the heart surgery to the 4th of July incident to today, I'm to the point of breaking ties with her. If I or my brother or my dad or my uncle that does keep a job or my cousin does something to help her or make something for her, she will treat it as a casual thing like something from a retail store. If the other uncle does something she'll praise him for days on end even though it's a PoS thing.

I go to college and start my art major and she goes "Are you going to get a job?" "Where will you work?" "There aren't anything for artists!"

My response: Can't you be glad I'm doing something with my life? This is what I want; not what you think I should do. This is my life, I will do what I think is best for me.

She just can't get it into her hollow skull that I'm not her "perfect-son" copy.

I've had enough. I'm done putting up with this.

[*Jess♥]

my moral code dictates that people who treat you right deserve to be treated right. people who don't treat you right ought to be ignored and cut off.

you said your uncle is disowned so i would imagine that you also have a similar moral.

family isn't the people who are related by blood. family are the people who welcome you and make you feel comfortable.

I have people related to me directly by blood, who i never speak to and have no time for really.

love, trust, faith, friendship etc, these things need to be earned. it's not hard to earn them of course. most people can earn them just by being there for you, or by keeping you company and being pleasant company etc.

that is my view on that anyway. thanks for sharing your thoughts.

[river_chaos]

Yeah, ever since the 4th of July incident and the disowned-peice-of-crap-uncle decided to talk smack, the family's been split bad. If I weren't such a small person I would've beaten his sorry @$$ that day for cussing my brother and cousin out.

Meemaw's been there for a lot of things for me and has done a lot for both me and bro. So it's hard for me to choose between cutting her off or continue to put up with this BS. From what I'm hearing this was coming for a long time (since Dad and his brothers were young).

[*Jess♥]

sometimes mothers will look after the one they think needs it the most. even if they have done something terrible.

it is difficult sometimes.

I think it is best for you to keep a distance while there is bad feelings. that way you can avoid having your mee-maw see you in a bad light.

even if you are justified being upset or angry, she might not totally see it and it might spoil your relationship.

so if you stay away for a small while, then things might get better in that time.

[river_chaos]

Sometimes it's a good thing, but not here. From what I've heard: he's the favorite and the other two are little to nothing. I don't think she knows the meaning of "tough love"; the sorry idiot's been living with her his whole life (which is 40 some odd years).

I've decided to just not make her anything in the future again. Using a shawl as a rag that's a cardinal sin, and using it just to soak up his sweat is a bitch slap to my pride.

[*Jess♥]

yeah that does sound pretty thoughtless.

I never really knew my nana or grandad. my grandad died sometimes last year and my nana died about 2 weeks ago i think.

the funny thing is, I don't care. it doesn't bother me. they never treated me as a grandson, so I never had the remotest feelings for them.

maybe if the last time i saw them was more recent, it might have bothered me a little, but I haven't seen them for years.

I guess what i am trying to say is, out of sight out of mind; and out of mind, out of emotions. if you don't see somebody there is no way anything that happens concerning them can hurt you.

edit: ah sorry, I think it looks like i'm trying to convince you to break ties with your family! no that's not a nice thing for me to do. please don't take what I say as any kind of advice. it is more like platitude or comforting or whatever you want to call it

[river_chaos]

It's okay, I know what you mean Ryuki.

I will always keep my heart open for her since I really don't think I have the black heart to disown her outright. It's her life; let her bust her butt every now and then.

I disowned one other grandma but she was a total **** that smoked around me while I was still a sickly kid and didn't care that I couldn't stand the smoke.

[river_chaos]

Helped a relative move yesterday and today helped meemaw clean her house for the family get together comming up. I want R&R now T-T

[river_chaos]

Just got back from a three day trip to A-Kon! For those who don't know what that is: it's one big ass anime convention held in Dallas, Texas. Me and members of the university nerd club went and had a blast.

There was cosplayers left and right; there were events 24/7; there was shops galore; and there were fellow artists selling their work whether it be fan art or their own comic book series. I had died and went to nerd heaven for three days!

I was kinda dissapointed to not see any Guyver stuff though...the convention is the second largest in the states...

[river_chaos]

Not a very productive week for me and my dad. The new place we're moving into is partially ready for us to completely move into; just need to install a few more things before bringing in the big stuff. We got the ceiling fans up (surprisingly it didn't have a single one before we bought it), got my room painted, and we've got one of three vanity cabnets that we need to put up. That was last weekend.

So why haven't we gotten more done and moving all our crap in now? My dad ate some fish sticks three nights ago and broke out into hives that have stayed for two days straight now and he hasn't gotten a good night sleep. He got a shot today from a doctor, but now the rash has grown from his arms and sides to his feet. I'm not sure what to do about it. I might end up taking him to a specialist if this keeps up; this has never happened before.

[river_chaos]

Finally moved in!!!

Now for the fun part: finding the stuff that Meemaw packed.

[*Jess♥]

I'm pretty envious

I Wish i could raise a deposit to move into the place I have my eye on.

[river_chaos]

Well, after many days of finding all our kitchen esentials, we've finally brought a method to this madness of a house. We ended up throwing away a lot of tupperware and rearranging everything in the kitchen cabnets (Meemaw's logic--if it is logic--makes no sense to us).

Really starting to get impatient with waiting for the new Guyver chapter; currently sitting on pins and needles to find out what happens to Tetsuro and Mizuki.

[*Jess♥]

I can't imagine how frustrating it must be. I have one pan, one plate, one bowl, one tupperware container, one cup.

don't worry about guyver, we have about another week.

[river_chaos]

We've got two crock pots, lots of skillets/pans, two pots, many glass bowls for either the microwave or oven, plastic resuable cups that need to be replaced, plenty of coffee mugs, too many utensiles, and too much silverware. Dad accumilated a lot of cooking stuff over the years Still, we have stuff that needs to be replaced (messed up or the bitch stole after she and dad split), but that's for when we can afford to get stuff. It's easy to organize a kitchen when you get a fell for said kitchen and learn what's more efficient.

[river_chaos]

Went to see the Dark Knight Rises today Very cool movie!

Now, to wait on the next few movies I wanna see next. I know one of them I'm gonna see on my birthday.

[river_chaos]

A member of my family passed away today She had been fighting cancer to several months, and yesterday she gave up the fight. The angels came for her this morning.

RIP Auntie....